Well here it goes, my first time blogging! and about my weight none the less.
So i guess i should start off by talking a lil about myself. Im 30 years old, am a Enrolled Nurse that works in mental health (dont be afraid, im realtively normal) and since the age of, hmmmmm....17? 18? ive been struggeling in major way with my weight. Its one of those things where you never notice how big you are until BAM! you see a photo of yourself or BAM! you try to hop on a ride at a theme park and you are asked by the attendants to please come this way (this way being the exit) in front of a whole bunch of other people waiting to go on the ride. Walk of shame? Hell yes! Wish i could say that was my wake up call but from there i gained more and more weight til suddenly i was at 135kgs.
But now I've decided that, damn it! i deserve some nice things in life too. Im the one who looks after the family and makes other peoples problems my own, the girl who wants to be able to wear leather pants (not anymore, i did when i was about 17 but now that im 30 i think the only people who wear them are strippers and people into BDSM) . Maybe turning 30 made me really look at where i was going in life. But i started thinking more and more about how much bigger i was getting, and how much more miserable i was becoming. So last year (around march 2010) i decided to move this weight offa me. Happy to say im now 32 kgs lighter. Just over half way to my goal weight of 75kgs.
So all was right with the world until the weight loss stopped. i wasnt gainning , but i wasnt losing either and i was soooo worried i would gain again that i just gave up trying. Then my older sister emailed me and sent me the invite to do the 12WBT. I kept thinking, sounds good but...meh i dont think its for me. But wouldnt you know it? i could not get this thing out of my head, which was a sign to me that maybe i should be doing this, and why shouldnt I? So I signed up. Am now into Week 2 Day 2 and i feel really good. im down 1.2kgs from start to first weigh in and im really excited about where this is going to go.
Im now at the lightest I've ever been since i was 22 and im looking forward to heading down further. Im excited to start my new life. And while i would love to be able to be one of those slim cows who can stuff my face with chocolate and not gain, i know my insides are thanking me, and being here in this moment now is going to make me a stronger person. So bring it on i say! :D
So i guess i should start off by talking a lil about myself. Im 30 years old, am a Enrolled Nurse that works in mental health (dont be afraid, im realtively normal) and since the age of, hmmmmm....17? 18? ive been struggeling in major way with my weight. Its one of those things where you never notice how big you are until BAM! you see a photo of yourself or BAM! you try to hop on a ride at a theme park and you are asked by the attendants to please come this way (this way being the exit) in front of a whole bunch of other people waiting to go on the ride. Walk of shame? Hell yes! Wish i could say that was my wake up call but from there i gained more and more weight til suddenly i was at 135kgs.
But now I've decided that, damn it! i deserve some nice things in life too. Im the one who looks after the family and makes other peoples problems my own, the girl who wants to be able to wear leather pants (not anymore, i did when i was about 17 but now that im 30 i think the only people who wear them are strippers and people into BDSM) . Maybe turning 30 made me really look at where i was going in life. But i started thinking more and more about how much bigger i was getting, and how much more miserable i was becoming. So last year (around march 2010) i decided to move this weight offa me. Happy to say im now 32 kgs lighter. Just over half way to my goal weight of 75kgs.
So all was right with the world until the weight loss stopped. i wasnt gainning , but i wasnt losing either and i was soooo worried i would gain again that i just gave up trying. Then my older sister emailed me and sent me the invite to do the 12WBT. I kept thinking, sounds good but...meh i dont think its for me. But wouldnt you know it? i could not get this thing out of my head, which was a sign to me that maybe i should be doing this, and why shouldnt I? So I signed up. Am now into Week 2 Day 2 and i feel really good. im down 1.2kgs from start to first weigh in and im really excited about where this is going to go.
Im now at the lightest I've ever been since i was 22 and im looking forward to heading down further. Im excited to start my new life. And while i would love to be able to be one of those slim cows who can stuff my face with chocolate and not gain, i know my insides are thanking me, and being here in this moment now is going to make me a stronger person. So bring it on i say! :D
